Should the word "mindlessness" be in this sentence instead of "forgetfulness"?

I have been moving out of the conscious mind to the deeper self.

Why do I sometimes feel like I’m a captive of my own weakness?

For the past couple of years, I have felt fear starting to creep into my life, slowly trying to take over, and I’m ready to take control and give my true spirit the reigns again.

I’ve changed friends a lot over the past few years, and I’m starting to think that as the only constant in these relationships - the problem is with me.

It seems that every day I’m introduced to a harder truth to accept, a more jagged pill to swallow. I don’t know how much more of this I can take.

I’d rather have him as a friend than not at all, but the idea of not having a romantic relationship with him is absolutely devastating.

I am exhausted and in pain from the constant battle and want some relief.

Growing up, I did not have models of clear intimacy and trust.

How can you tell the difference between a situation that is alternately uncomfortable, frustrating, challenging, disheartening, occasionally exhilarating, eye-opening, and interesting, from one that is simply flies in the face of everything you ultimately care about and believe in, tries to turn you into someone you’re not such that you should drop it all and just move on, especially when others are counting on you?

Do you have any advice for me on how to engage better with family/friends who don’t want to change, when you can feel what they are going through? They want it, but they don’t do it.

I feel scared to continue my daily meditation practice although deep down I feel that I should go further.

Take today as an invitation to step back from this externally focused hypnosis and feast on your life.

In the past, I could manage this pain by volunteering, meditating, studying karma, and/or practicing gratitude, but none of these are working as of late

Is it wrong to wish to find safety in a relationship? To wish to find a man and to just know that we want to spend our lives together? Is this childish?

I honestly can’t take this anymore - it’s brutal, totally brutal. Any advice is massively appreciated.

I fear that I’m not doing enough or not dealing with something that is blocking me from the things that I want out of life, keeping me forever stuck in my patterns.

I know in the grand scheme of addictions, Internet porn is not that big of a deal, but I feel like cumulatively it has isolated me and made me feel awkward in developing more intimate relationships.

I feel like they build up, and then when the opportunity comes, they all spill out, usually on my husband.

Is this astrology a real thing or useful?