I want to depend on my connection to this soft place, where I am okay with myself no matter what’s happening around me.

In shamanism, I learned that powerful forms of healing, such as soul retrieval and compassionate depossession, truly do change things at a deep level, and permanently.

I often do feel like a brat through this process, but also embrace that it is just that… my process.

I know what I’m learning is the practice of becoming comfortable with discomfort (to put it mildly), feeling my feelings, not abandoning myself to behavioral addictions or intoxicating substances, not losing myself in dissociation, more consciously setting boundaries, and authentically connecting with myself and others...

For me, not having regrets is understanding that every situation, mistake, bad habit, experience, etc., are the opportunities that promote growth.

I’m a little overwhelmed and confused, so any insight or illumination you can give would be greatly appreciated!

I’m having trouble masking my anger and lack of empathy. At the same time, I see spikes in my own patterns of insecurity that she fuels when I am with her.

I am having a hard time transitioning between living as the victim of the abandoned and scared little girl inside me (the resisting part) to being the victor of my circumstance and a present parent that takes care and hears both the little girl inside me as well as my two little boys (the accepting part).

What is your take on moving through it in a conscious and clearing way?

How, besides therapy, can I strengthen myself and my energies on my own?