Ask Abdi: A Brilliant Comment On Astrological Forecasts And Such
No question here. Just a brilliant comment sent to me by a friend regarding astrological forecasts and such:
I had a brutal lesson years ago about information – about ‘fitting in’ and shaping myself to an oncoming, developing situation. Instead of allowing all my life’s personal work that had passed before to be my past, I took it to be my immunity from getting shifted from change. I felt afraid of more pain; I wouldn’t take any more. I had no support group, or system where I was. I was completely alone and the raw emptiness that lay ahead, I quashed by verbalizing to myself, criss-crossing words that built a false bottom. When reading/hearing about the oncoming change etc., I hid my initial apprehension behind a wall consisting of conviction from my dear ego who, desperate for safety, shouted, “This pain? Not for us. We’re safe. It’s OK. We’ve done that. Uh huh,… yep, shit’s coming down. But we’re safe. We’ve done work on change from since I can remember. This is a time for me to shoot out the other side and flower at last.” But it was my ego that was talking; my words. My immense fear. No my friend, not fear, it was unbridled terror to not go deeper. In fact, I had needed all before to bring me here. Who said life was fair? I had expected my childhood and adolescence to be enough pain. I couldn’t imagine that all that had passed before was only my ticket to this moment in time and I was just the same as everyone else. I promptly had a meltdown but hid in my third chakra; a place I knew well.
So this time, I’m standing apart from myself a little, as naked and open as I can, with an empty mind a mind as possible. I ask: ‘Show me. Take me as far as my battered psyche can take because I’m combusting and I don’t know anything anymore. I’ve made mistakes that have become habits that trap and limit me. They lead me far from communion, happiness and peace. I dump my mind. I am as untethered as possible and ask to get moved and grooved by this shift. I ask for the faith and trust I have lost. Without it, I can’t go on anymore. Do it.’